Another night getting wasted. I don’t know why I am in this self destructive mode but I enjoy it at the time and as soon as I get indoors after I regret it, but there is nothing I can do by then, by that time I am drunk and just want to do sleep it off to minimize the feeling like shit in the morning.
Joke is I had started being good and doing exercises at home for the previous two days, But I had overdone it and hurt my back so had a night off the exercise, rather than sitting in and having a quiet one though I just wanted a beer so over to the bar I went, and stayed till closing.
The thing that is bothering me the most is my weight as I am sure if this continues then it will bloom, even writing that I feel bad as really my liver should be my number 1 concern. Still we all die of something.